~Sajiri

Edit: Okay, I was rushing before when I wrote that so I didnt say everything I should have. For people who have only recently been watching me, I didnt think of you in this. Since I've only had one or two since you started watching me and, as I said, I dont expect comments on everything, so I dont really see you as having had a chance to comment on stuff yet. I do understand not being able to think of anything to say. Thats why I dont comment on alot. I meant more the people who have watched me for a long time, used to comment regularly, and now dont even look at all. I do know they dont look, as I've said they only see if I ask them and give them a link. That started to bring me down, and I wondered if that was the same as everyone else.

I do have to apologise I guess. I was in a bad mood (still am kinda) and most of you probably know how much I love to rant...I really should start taking my medication =.= My point was really I just wanted to know if people look or not. If you say you dont, I wont mind. Honestly. Its just I dont like posting my art online much because people can just come along, save and then post it somewhere else (and I for one am fed up of finding my pics of Cage on photobucket and titled as him being Kai Hiwatari), so if people dont really care about looking at my art, then I dont have any real reason to post it here. As I said, I put it on DA to get feedback, and if I dont get that, and people dont look at my art, then I may as well just take everything down and leave. No thats not an angry threat. Im being honest and saying something that has reason.

I really wonder sometimes. Do the people who watch me just not look at my art anymore? Or are you just too lazy to comment. No, I do not expect people to comment on every single thing I post (gods know I dont) but it seems to me that even though I improve in art I get less comments and faves. It makes me wonder why?

I dont judge pageviews and such as a level of popularity, its the internet for crying out loud, but I did join this site in the first place to get feedback on my art to improve it. These days I might get only one or two people comment on my art, and usually at least one of them only because its someone I talk to on msn and I gave them the link.

Here's an example

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My latest artwork. I spent two days working on it, and three people commented. Two of whom because I was talking about it for ages to them while I was working on it. So if I was silent, I most likely would only have had ONE comment.

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Here's something from three years ago. Bad proportions, crappy colouring, and the background was most likely something I got off google. Yet 15 people comment. That seems to be the norm. Even though I've improved, my art recieves much less attention. I really do wonder why. I dont do fanart (or not fanart for anything popular) because people only look at it because they know it, not because they like it. Is that what I have to do to get feedback on my art now? Start doing fanart and put up with "*insert random anime character here* is so cute. Kawai!" over and over?

Meh...I dont expect anyone to reply to this. Like my art, my journals recieve very little notice these days as well (and I know, because if I say something important like Im going away for a while, my friends never read it and have no idea). Unless of course someone wants to just tell me Im overreacting and that they just have no time/get too many messages/just have a slow connection etc.